Funny Face

i don't think i really have a voice. thank you King's Speech for reminding me that i should. so here are all my thoughts right now.

i love it when Emily drops the F-bomb. its the funniest thing in the world!

we live in a beautiful place, and i wish people wouldn't ruin that. i wish people didn't suck... i wish people didn't think it was ok to hurt and manipulate other people. i wish they realized what they do to people. What tiny things that they say or do that can change others for worse or for better. I wonder why it is that i feel like a people think i am a lump of clay to be molded and twisted and thrown away.

This week has not been great. i feel depressed and the only reason i can understand is because I'm overwhelmed. i keep telling myself its just one of those days, and it will go away, but its the waiting for it to go away that hurts. i was told today that you can choose to be happy. That is easier said than done. how do you just tell yourself "be happy!" when you're life feels like its a roller coaster ride of ups and downs.

Rent anAudrey Hepburn movie thats how! God

created Hepburn so i could be happy. (purple text helps too.)

i don't know how to be strong for someone else, not really. Not when they probably need it the most. i don't know what to say or whether or not the stupid life lessons i've taught myself apply to anyone else.

i'm sick of being proven wrong because i was stupid enough to believe someone how continuously proves to me he is a lying.... i can't think of a word for him. some seem too strong and some not strong enough. i'm sick of being lied to, ignored, manipulated, and silent. i want to scream at the top of my lungs.

i thank Allah for Cambria Hobbs who let me forget my world for a while today, and took me to a park with swings over a river, and lots of screaming and a little frost bite. (a note to cambria, i think we should write a note to the people who made that place and leave it on the tree.) thank you friends for being the reason i survive.

we're like gypsies but with worse luck and far less gold

here is a fact: when its my time of the month, and i stay up until 12 AM telling Chandler about my deepest rooted fears of men (you're a good friend for actually listening fyi) i get super gushy. so i wrote my four best friends letters on my blog. they were SOOOOPER (i like that spelling better) gushy. but despite the gooshiness its all true. i love my friends more than life itself. but we i am not always a serious emotional person. so here are my happy thoughts for the day. (and its colorful for happiness!)

1. why are feminine hygein products put in really bright packaging. its like you're asking people to say "hey! look who's on their period!"

2. Why are people so stupid?! you would think that more than like forty percent of the people who come into a college textbook store would be fairly intelligent. then again its at UVU.

3. Watching How I Met Your Mother for An hour and half, and laughing my face off. Then googling Neil Patrick Harris, because he's so hot and sadly gay. but has two kids. Then learning he was Mark in Rent, and sang a Rent song with his husband. made my day.

4. getting complained about in Chick-fil-a for saying inappropriate things too loud in front of an old couple and their grandkids. i feel kinda bad about it, but mostly i thought it was just funny.

5. four weeks left until i am in new york city! i am so excited! what a way to start a summer!

so those were your happy thoughts from Kate. all in all a good saturday.